[♥] Twenty-Five things on Breaking Up for Females [♥]

Not all women know how to handle themselves through a breakup. So I wrote this specifically for you in result of my lovely relationship experiences. If any one of these things hits home for you, or helps you in anyway, I'm successful. :) Enjoy.

Here's to all my females:

1. Love is a lifetime commitment, if you find a male constantly leaving and coming back obviously he's not commited, therefore it is not love.
2. Trust is a must. Period. No trust, no go!
3. Never settle for less. There are thousands of males out there that are dying to show you their endless love. Why settle for anything less when you could possibly be getting it all?
4. Once a cheater always a cheater. Enough said.
5. The blame game is a no go. The only person to blame is yourself for not kicking their big old booty to the curb sooner.
6. Never regret, it is because of them that you will never fall for a broken male again.
7. Wear short skirts, high heels, puckered lips & poofy hair whenever you see them. They will see what a dumb ass they were for letting you go. And you will love watching them cringe.
8. Always trust your intuitions.
9. If you love your family & they do not like them, then neither should you.
10. One lie, leads to another, leads to another, which leads to another. So break it off the first time. You don't want a liar for a husband do you?
11. In the words of beyonce, "If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it."
12. There's something wrong when they come home @ 4 in the morning creating nonsense excuses. Best believe that.
13. If they can look you in the eyes and lie to you, they don't deserve your respect or love. Ever.
14. When you receive their text asking for you back, laugh hysterically. Then don't even waste your breath. Lean over and hold your new man tightly.
15. Keep on stepping. No time to fall down. And those shoes your wearing were expensive!
16. Make time for the girls, they are the ones that will always be there for you when the males come and go.
17. Head up. They'll be checking up on you, and it'll kill them to see you fall. But it's gonna murder them to see you happy. :)
18. Stop worrying about them. Stop checking their statuses and memos, you already know their with another dumb ho whose falling for their tricks. Therefore that two seconds you just wasted looking, could have been better spent painting your toenails or plucking your eyebrows. LOL.
19. Life isn't always perfect. It's cool if your past relationships leave some nasty scars. But bandage them up yourself and get back on your feet.
20. If your singing the song, "I'll bust your windows out your car" and they don't even have a car, there's a problem. You need a man @ your side who has got their business together. Stop trying to help put theirs together.
21. If you ever falter and miraculously start thinking about the few good moments of the relationship, pop in a Beyonce CD. Problem solved.
22. Attitude is the worst solution. Giving them attitude gives them confidence because they believe they have a hold on you. So be nice. They'll be acting all crazy in the matter of seconds wondering what or even better WHO is making you so care-free and happy.
23. The past is in the past. Keep it there.
24. Walk with confidence even if you don't have it. Eventually it'll catch on & you'll be feeling all superhuman.
25. Most importantly, love again. [♥] There is that someone out there for you. He's waiting to make you his Queen. Never let a relationship inhibit your ability to love again. Have hope [♥]

Second Chances

Where to even begin... :(

Well. Today was a HORRIBLE day. Let's just say that my horrible intuitions got me into trouble. Here's where I'll start. You see, me and my boyfriend Nychlas have been on and off for two years. During those two years, he has abused my trust a couple of times which have driven me to be rather insecure when it comes to relationships. Lately I have found myself sinking to this insecurity. I realize that it's just that I am scared to lose everything I've gained. But with this fear I increase my chances of driving him away. The constant assumptions, and questioning... I mean I wouldn't like it either.

But, it's not like I made myself this way. It's not like I wanna be this person. It's not like I'm doing this on purpose.

This morning I accused him of things that never happened. I don't know what it is, but I formulate these scenarios in my head and they all just grow into this story that I convince myself is true. Why do I do this to myself? My stupid little construed story grew into something huge. And before I knew it he was saying all sorts of things that cut me deep, had me literally in tears.

I just don't get how he doesn't understand that it can't just be dropped in a second. It takes time. He's been trying so hard to prove to me that he wants to be with me, and now I see that but that pain, that broken heart... still isn't healed completely. :(

Now it's got me thinking... is it even worth trying? Will I ever get over it? I wanna try... I love him so much. I was really honestly happy with our little family. I loved it. Waking up every day with the two people I care about the most. Having him there for every moment, Gabriel's first doctors appointment, his first time turning over, smiling... But was it just too late for him to fix the past? How can I forgive and move on when every time he leaves the house I question him and interrogate him. Where did we go wrong? Where did I go wrong?

I just hope that whatever God has in store for me... that it's not as painful as today. That he can help me trust again. And help us mend our broken past... And raise our baby boy together. If not... God must have a better plan for me.

Vent: Drama Like Always

Can someone please shut stupid people up? I hate when people try and mess things up! He's obviously not with you. Nor staying with you. So why are you trying to put on a front like he is?! Get a life... please. Because obviously you have too much time on your hands to make up stupid things and try and mess with people's lives.

He is my boyfriend. He is my man. He is with me. And you know ALL that. So even IF he is saying stuff to you, your trying to mess with him, "or be patient," with him knowing that. And that just looks really bad on your part. There are names for the girl that does that these days... Your waiting around for someone while they stay at my house with me, kissing me, holding me & telling me they wanna marry me? Hmmm... makes NO sense.

Ugh... enough of the venting. Just had to get that off my chest, that is all.