11/08/2008

Hey everyone :) 27 days to go and I get to meet my prince charming!!! I can't wait. I like want each day to just go by already. I know this is pathetic lol... but I wake up every morning just thinking about going back to sleep so the day can go by already! LOL. I feel so much more prepared and ready for him... ugh! I can't wait any LONGER!

My last doctor's appointment my doctor checked me and told me that I was 1.5 dialated. Which could mean two different things... I could have him any day now or I could remain 1.5 dialated till two weeks after my due date with no progress. It really varies among all women. So atleast I have made some progress right? :) Hopefully I make more progress for my next appointment on Monday. I can't wait to go again already! Here's a pic of me @ 36 weeks!! I took it today!



School... eh... I'm kinda slacking. It sucks I know. I just feel so distracted and so unmotivated. I have other priorities now. I keep wishing that next semester I didn't have to go back and I could just take a one semester break. But that's the last semester I get my scholarship... so I would be basically throwing away about $5,000 dollars. Which I cannot afford! So I gotta stick it to it and push through... :(

As for the BD and I... well... there's not much to say. Him and I have gotten better at being parents. I think it's because it's getting closer. I can tell he's getting more excited. But he still chooses to disrespect me @ his moments. I wonder how is it you can tell someone you love them and then treat them the way you do?? Just doesn't seem right... but then again maybe that's just me. And I wonder how you can just look someone straight in their eyes and lie?? Doesn't that seem kinda heartless... again, maybe this is just me.

Well I'm home alone and can't sleep... Gabriel is keeping me up. But I guess I should try and head off to bed... I have a long eight hours of work tomorrow. Night!!

10/27/2008

[[A Letter 2 My Son]]

Dear Gabriel:
Mama loves you so much... there's not any words that can begin to describe how much I love you. It's definitely crazy how much I can love someone who I haven't even seen or held. I am definitely going through so much right now, and you are the string that's holding me together. I know that when you get here things will be all worth while. I can't wait to see your little smile, and have your little fingers wrap around mine. I can't wait to start my life with you. You are and always will be the only man I need in my life. ♥ You are my hope.


Today mama was in your room for like two hours... I can't get enough of you. I organized all your clothes and made everything look all nice. I can't wait for this Sunday when you'll get a bunch more things from all your aunties and grandma and all your friends. :) Ugh... it's gonna make me want you here even more! Hopefully you get some good things that will help us out... I'm definitely worried that mama is gonna struggle doing things alone. But no matter what I promise that I'll always be there for you. And I know that we'll find a way to make it through... I love you so much Gabriel. Your my little gee-baby, my prince, and mi amor para siempre. Well I'm going to try and get some rest... since you don't like to let mommy rest these days! LOL.

[♥] Sweet Dreams Pumpkin [♥]

Love Mama

10/15/2008

Hey everyone. It's been a while since I've updated on my blog! But the plan is to attempt to get on here more often... key word: attempt. LOL. Things have been all right lately. Nych and I were together for two months... and then BAM things change. What's new? It's okay though. At first yeah, I admit I was trippin. But I have come to realize a lot of things... and I know that things will get better in time. Whether he's in the picture or not. :) There are days where he'll text me saying he misses me and blah blah blah [I call this his "game-time."] and there are days where he doesn't even text to ask about Gabriel. I'm ready to have my little prince here already so I can have a steady predictable relationship. Rather than one where I never know what the next day brings!

I am 32 weeks and 5 days pregnant as of today! And every day I wake up I feel more and more like a fat cow. LOL. My last appt. they told me I only gained a total of 10 pounds through the whole pregnancy. I was up to twelve and then lost two pounds... of course! My doctor didn't seem too worried about it... but she made it known that I should be a little above what I'm at right now. Woopsies. LOL. Hopefully I don't gain too much though in the next couple of months... I wanna be able to get back on my workout routine after baby is here! I'm ready to be done being a fat hippo! LOL. Here's a pic of me @ 32 weeks prego!


Nych and I finally decided on a name. Gabriel Chance Valentin. :) I love it. I can't wait to meet him. Technically I only have 51 days to go. I can't wait till he's here... but I feel so unprepared. This weekend is my baby shower! My BFF Jessica is throwing it for me... I'm super excited and can't wait to see what I get! :) Well I guess that's a quick update for now! I'll be back later. Ta-Ta! :)